Maybe not yet. But maybe not ... no The whole holiday thing makes it come up.
Christmas will probably be worse for that, and I'd rather not be a complete basket case during either.
[ It's the truth, and it's a lie. It's that, but it's, also, that she held Claire in her arms. Heard her voice. Her laugh. Felt her hands grip in. Made her cry. Chose something that wasn't her again, saving people, saving herself, but not Claire, not choosing Claire, not staying with Claire, which sticks even when she knows it wasn't really Claire either. Except the things Harry said last night, about what he was doing for Maggie here and now were still ringing in her head, and had pricked a need to do ... something.
She just didn't know if she wanted to be brave enough to do the thing she thought it was. The one she knew she didn't want to talk about. Not with Vanya. Not even with Luther. ]
no subject
Maybe not yet. But maybe not ... no
The whole holiday thing makes it come up.
Christmas will probably be worse for that, and I'd rather not be a complete basket case during either.
[ It's the truth, and it's a lie. It's that, but it's, also, that she held Claire in her arms. Heard her voice. Her laugh. Felt her hands grip in. Made her cry. Chose something that wasn't her again, saving people, saving herself, but not Claire, not choosing Claire, not staying with Claire, which sticks even when she knows it wasn't really Claire either. Except the things Harry said last night, about what he was doing for Maggie here and now were still ringing in her head, and had pricked a need to do ... something.
She just didn't know if she wanted to be brave enough to do the thing she thought it was.
The one she knew she didn't want to talk about. Not with Vanya. Not even with Luther. ]