[That is the most honest she could possibly be with him, with anyone. She is very much not okay, and she doesn't know if she can be. She knows she's lucky that Finn was around, lucky that he stepped in to bring her to Aegis rather than someone else taking her to a real jail. Vanya knows this is the best place for her, because she is a monster. But she resents it, too. She wants to scream that it isn't her fault, that this isn't fair, that she doesn't belong here.
But she knows that's not right, either. So she keeps it inside, and tries to figure out if her guilt is enough to override her anger.]
im angry. and i'm sad. and i don't know what to say
[It's more truth than she intends, but she sends it anyway.]
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[That is the most honest she could possibly be with him, with anyone. She is very much not okay, and she doesn't know if she can be. She knows she's lucky that Finn was around, lucky that he stepped in to bring her to Aegis rather than someone else taking her to a real jail. Vanya knows this is the best place for her, because she is a monster. But she resents it, too. She wants to scream that it isn't her fault, that this isn't fair, that she doesn't belong here.
But she knows that's not right, either. So she keeps it inside, and tries to figure out if her guilt is enough to override her anger.]
im angry. and i'm sad. and i don't know what to say
[It's more truth than she intends, but she sends it anyway.]