[But she means no - not that she won't tell him, because if she did change her mind she doubts her pride would stop her from reaching out. But no, she won't change her mind, because right now she would rather listen to strangers bitch her out about something she has no control over than look him in the face and act like she isn't full of seething self-loathing.
She shouldn't just leave it at that, not if she wants to stay any kind of friendly with him (and a part of her wonders if she shouldn't just torpedo this now, before it winds up hurting more).]
[ Even if he's not the most socially savvy, he can at least tell when he's being dismissed. The smiley face suggests that at least she's not mad at him and, since it doesn't occur to him that she could've just put it there to assuage his worries so he'll leave her alone, it relaxes him enough to let the conversation go. ]
Okay cool. Looking forward to it. See you soon, Vanya. :)
[ ...yeah, no, no more emoticons for Derek. It looks weird, it feels weird, and it's just...yeah. No. ]
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[But she means no - not that she won't tell him, because if she did change her mind she doubts her pride would stop her from reaching out. But no, she won't change her mind, because right now she would rather listen to strangers bitch her out about something she has no control over than look him in the face and act like she isn't full of seething self-loathing.
She shouldn't just leave it at that, not if she wants to stay any kind of friendly with him (and a part of her wonders if she shouldn't just torpedo this now, before it winds up hurting more).]
See you at the party if not before :)
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Okay cool. Looking forward to it. See you soon, Vanya. :)
[ ...yeah, no, no more emoticons for Derek. It looks weird, it feels weird, and it's just...yeah. No. ]