[Well, she hates that fear apparently means she has her shit together. But at least the idea that someone thinks she's thinking clearly is a comfort.
And that he respects Allison. Okay, actually - her fist instinct is jealously possessive, that's her sister, why is he making those very obvious judgments? But it passes, because guilt is good for nothing if not for reminding her that she deserves very little. So.]
I don't know how long I can think about it. my head hurts.
[She knows she's explaining herself poorly, but it's exhausted, walking through this. Just being propped up by someone else is absolutely Exhausting - listening to someone else to think well of her, she doesn't know what to do with that, and she's already in a place with so few options.]
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And that he respects Allison. Okay, actually - her fist instinct is jealously possessive, that's her sister, why is he making those very obvious judgments? But it passes, because guilt is good for nothing if not for reminding her that she deserves very little. So.]
shes here
shes been here
i dont want to be broken
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Good.
Broken is probably a bad word, and my bad for using it. Its what I used, but... it's not for everyone.
You have been hurt, by the world, and by life, and you have to find your path, your way, to rebuild, and to heal.
Wanting to heal, wanting to not be where you are now, is absolutely valid and makes sense.
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[She knows she's explaining herself poorly, but it's exhausted, walking through this. Just being propped up by someone else is absolutely Exhausting - listening to someone else to think well of her, she doesn't know what to do with that, and she's already in a place with so few options.]
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[ He has a habit of it, and now he feels bad. ]