[ This is a guy who hasn't been turned down since high school and even then, he'd only taken it as a challenge, so this subtle blow off she's trying to achieve, he doesn't see it. ]
[She considers a few things - she wants to ask why again, because obviously there's someone better to turn to. She wants to ask if Diego was too busy to spend time with him. Thank God it's just a text, because the long break before she responds is a little less weird. She can just pretend she's busy, and not sitting on the floor with her back against her bed.]
Not sure
[Her shifts are pretty set, actually, but this little lie feels easier.]
idk if today is good though. I probably won't be much fun to be around after dealing with people complaining about stuff
[ A part of him wants to counter because he's sure she'll be good company all the same, but another part of him wonders if this is as close as someone like Vanya will ever get to "just fuck off, Derek." It's starting to sink in between the length between texts (she could be busy or she could be trying to figure out a way to be nice about it) and the fact that it's the first time since they've been hanging out that she's pushed back instead of just letting him know when would be better if the proposed time wasn't. ]
Oh, all right. Well, let me know if you change your mind?
[But she means no - not that she won't tell him, because if she did change her mind she doubts her pride would stop her from reaching out. But no, she won't change her mind, because right now she would rather listen to strangers bitch her out about something she has no control over than look him in the face and act like she isn't full of seething self-loathing.
She shouldn't just leave it at that, not if she wants to stay any kind of friendly with him (and a part of her wonders if she shouldn't just torpedo this now, before it winds up hurting more).]
[ Even if he's not the most socially savvy, he can at least tell when he's being dismissed. The smiley face suggests that at least she's not mad at him and, since it doesn't occur to him that she could've just put it there to assuage his worries so he'll leave her alone, it relaxes him enough to let the conversation go. ]
Okay cool. Looking forward to it. See you soon, Vanya. :)
[ ...yeah, no, no more emoticons for Derek. It looks weird, it feels weird, and it's just...yeah. No. ]
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[ This is a guy who hasn't been turned down since high school and even then, he'd only taken it as a challenge, so this subtle blow off she's trying to achieve, he doesn't see it. ]
I wanted to see if you wanted to hang out.
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Not sure
[Her shifts are pretty set, actually, but this little lie feels easier.]
idk if today is good though. I probably won't be much fun to be around after dealing with people complaining about stuff
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Oh, all right. Well, let me know if you change your mind?
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[But she means no - not that she won't tell him, because if she did change her mind she doubts her pride would stop her from reaching out. But no, she won't change her mind, because right now she would rather listen to strangers bitch her out about something she has no control over than look him in the face and act like she isn't full of seething self-loathing.
She shouldn't just leave it at that, not if she wants to stay any kind of friendly with him (and a part of her wonders if she shouldn't just torpedo this now, before it winds up hurting more).]
See you at the party if not before :)
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Okay cool. Looking forward to it. See you soon, Vanya. :)
[ ...yeah, no, no more emoticons for Derek. It looks weird, it feels weird, and it's just...yeah. No. ]